I’m turning 23. There are so many things running through my head about this age. Its one that I admired from afar. In my head a 21yr old is still a kid. A 22yr old is almost ready for the real adulting. While at 23 , one begins to seriously adult.
During my previous birthdays, it was more about the milestones I’ve made and how far I’ve come. At 20, I couldn’t believe I was no longer a teenager. That I was finally in my twenties. I was elated in a childish manner( hehe). At 21, I was just there. Overburdened by life. At 22, I was surviving. I was more glad to be alive because I knew how bad it can get.
But at 23, my thoughts are focused on the future. On the promise it holds. The opportunities. The surprises waiting for me. The woman I’m growing into.
When I think of age 23, one word comes to mind; Mistakes. I think of it as that age when one doesn’t know what the future holds. Where one falls, fails, falls and fails again. Its at that age when you are no longer a kid- meaning if anything goes wrong in your life, its entirely upto you.
And I’m looking forward to that..to an year of being daring. Of asking questions. Of going ahead and trying something out even when I know nought of its end. Of getting out of my comfort zone. Of stretching myself to see how much I can handle.
23 feels like real adulthood to me. If there is one thing the stories I’ve heard about adulthood show me, its this; not knowing. Not knowing whether tomorrow will be like today. Not knowing if that job is the right one. Or if that guy is serious with you. Or if God and you are still okay. Not knowing about the bigger picture but having a thousand little decisions to be made as of now.
I hope next year, a date like today, i’ll look back and be glad that I had a daring year. That I did more than I didn’t do. That I jumped off cliffs. That I went ahead despite the fear and the what ifs. That I gave my best to myself, my friends, family and my environment. That God fulfilled my yearly prayer.
But for now, I celebrate myself. This is my happiest Birthday yet. I’ve never looked forward to a year as much as this one.
Happy 23rd Birthday Mercy! May it bring you more than you expect from it.